I think this blog is going to end up looking a lot like my sun sign--- geminian...ordered and scattered, linear, yet divided (are those opposites, prob not).
Anyway, I wanted to take a break from chronicling my "journey of reconnection" by addressing some perhaps complimentary and VERY real concerns I have about my present life:
1) seeing as i am living in a studio ALONE, without even a dog, cat, fish or rat...it occurred to me that so many of us, mostly women who admit it, are afraid to die alone. Let's face it people, most of us are going to die alone, its the living alone that is scary. And lets just spread the pity around somemore when I say that the elderly recieve a disproportionate amount of attention in this arena...I've fallen and I can't get up!!! What about me? At least they have the senior citizens home, or someone/family member who is going to be checking in on them to make sure they are okay. If I fell in my studio (and granted its only for another ocuple of weeks that I will be living alone)...I don't think that anyone would come looking for me. SUre my phone might ring (of course it would naturally be out of arms reach), but I can say with certainty that at this point in my life, people would asssume 1) i wasnt available 2) i was super busy (yup, lying on the ground) and/or 3) i would get back to them when i could...while all of these are true...but do not address the real concerns--- we are not accountable to one another....
1a) at the same time, i think that if this were to happen, my boss would call me, I wouldnt pick up, hed call my sister, who'd say...i just talked to her 3 days ago...i told you she was going to quit...shes like that, or make up some excuse, but no one would really be concerned for me to the point of actually following up with me, also no one knows where i live...only where i work, and even if people knew where i lived...we dont live in the type of society where people drop by anymore....
yummy, i just found a piece of my sandwhich in stuck in the neck of my sweater!
ok, back to my observations...sure while this situation could easily be ameliorated, is it not telling of the ways in which we live our lives? we are not accountable to our neighbors, our friends, our families...or is it just me overgeneralizing?
Lets take a look at another hypothetical scenario...lets say you are in a relationship, married...or whatever...same thing could happen...this person ran off, she/he needed some space...OR Cynthia is lying on the floor of her apartment immobilized.
Happy Pre-Valentines Day!
Anyway, I wanted to take a break from chronicling my "journey of reconnection" by addressing some perhaps complimentary and VERY real concerns I have about my present life:
1) seeing as i am living in a studio ALONE, without even a dog, cat, fish or rat...it occurred to me that so many of us, mostly women who admit it, are afraid to die alone. Let's face it people, most of us are going to die alone, its the living alone that is scary. And lets just spread the pity around somemore when I say that the elderly recieve a disproportionate amount of attention in this arena...I've fallen and I can't get up!!! What about me? At least they have the senior citizens home, or someone/family member who is going to be checking in on them to make sure they are okay. If I fell in my studio (and granted its only for another ocuple of weeks that I will be living alone)...I don't think that anyone would come looking for me. SUre my phone might ring (of course it would naturally be out of arms reach), but I can say with certainty that at this point in my life, people would asssume 1) i wasnt available 2) i was super busy (yup, lying on the ground) and/or 3) i would get back to them when i could...while all of these are true...but do not address the real concerns--- we are not accountable to one another....
1a) at the same time, i think that if this were to happen, my boss would call me, I wouldnt pick up, hed call my sister, who'd say...i just talked to her 3 days ago...i told you she was going to quit...shes like that, or make up some excuse, but no one would really be concerned for me to the point of actually following up with me, also no one knows where i live...only where i work, and even if people knew where i lived...we dont live in the type of society where people drop by anymore....
yummy, i just found a piece of my sandwhich in stuck in the neck of my sweater!
ok, back to my observations...sure while this situation could easily be ameliorated, is it not telling of the ways in which we live our lives? we are not accountable to our neighbors, our friends, our families...or is it just me overgeneralizing?
Lets take a look at another hypothetical scenario...lets say you are in a relationship, married...or whatever...same thing could happen...this person ran off, she/he needed some space...OR Cynthia is lying on the floor of her apartment immobilized.
Happy Pre-Valentines Day!
posted by Cynly at 3:43 PM
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